Between Journey & Real Life

This photo was taken on 25 October 2016 at my doctor graduation.
When I was officially dr. Marsela Vineta  

Long short story....  Being love and hate before being a doctor is same with being in a relationship.
My mind is always wanted to leave this medical things because of several reason and hard times, but my heart just say no.

Things you have to know. I am a planned person, I have a plan for my life for every life-stage.
For example : At age of 17, I already can see my self as a doctor at age of 23, and i will do anything to make it happened. For you know I wanted to be a doctor since i was 2 yo, because i see my daddy and haven't see the world. My world was so small and it affected my decision for who i wanted to be in a future. Maybe if one of my parents is a designer, i would be one too. Or maybe if one of them is business-person, i wanted to be one too.

Well, God has made our own pathway. I was born and raised in a doctor family, starting from my father. I see him everyday working in his practice everyday from evening to afternoon, and i just like it. How cool that my dad can do some surgical stuff, stitching teared skin, circumcision, stop the seizure and many more. How cool was that!
So when I grew up as a teen from Jhs to Shs, if anyone i asked me what college will i go after school, my answer will be always medical school.

First year was getting so smooth, I got amazed with anatomy stuff, cadaver, bones etc. Exams were always stressful, there will be four times in a year my heart beat fast waiting my exam result. If it's bad result then i wont be have any holiday for the rest of the year. It was awful, but Thanked God I always passed the test, thats a hardwork dude!

After several years, I finally entering my 'Coas' (Co-Assistant). A phase made me wanted to stop being a doctor, cause im tired of nightshift and dont have a time for myself, I was very very ugly at that time. Plus being outside of the city with no shopping mall / cafe made me homesick all the time.  I'll be telling you later about my coas journey.

I often wanted to quit and looking for another opportunities, it was a "fashion blogger" one lol.
Because i saw how a fashion blogger could made so much money and so easy rather than being a doctor, more over because doctor in this time doesnt make much money (in my country - if you only work as a GP),  try to compare to nowadays lifestyle which demanding us to spend much $$ if we want to enjoying everything in life. Well that's enough as my thought, didn't mean to be materialistic but thats the truth, who else agree with me ?:)
Then finally I found out it was not that easy to be a fashion blogger who have to do makeup and photoshoot everyday with different fashion stuff each day, and being the skinniest person so they can wear everything perfectly, looking skinny from any angle (I was soo fat so i only able to wear some stuff that look nice on me), plus It was so hard to manage my time, find person who want to take a picture of me, do makeup, plus hairdo. And...  finally I gave up, cause in the and I will always focusing to be a doctor and leave eveything.lol.

FYI The rest of post you see in this blog was my old photos (when i still fat), and when try to be a blogger one.. hehhehehe

But anyhow i need to always pursuing my dream. I already go this far, spending years for studying and its my mistakes if I failed it. My principal I always hold on to : When your work/job does not make you get the life you expect, at least do your best in what you do now, then it will leads slowly in to life that you want, go get the chance, the real one, and always be grateful in everything.
That's words that I always try to convinced myself so I wont give up.


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